Your New Gender and You (Pt. 2) - 04/11/06 04:38 PM
Once again, we return to Augtember Umpteenth, 2005...
5:00 PM. After coming home and eating my cheap frozen pizza, I call the temp agency I applied at a week ago. I won't name names. One of the owners had given me a weird, nervous interview. They didn't contact me for a week afterward.
"Oh, hi, Milla! Sorry, right after you applied, several of us in the office went on vacation!"
Ahh, I see. Um, you know, evidently they never did come back from vacation.
I'm glad, too.
Other than job discrimination, perhaps the biggest issue the transgendered person faces, especially early on in his/her/hir transition, is confidence. It's a bit of a duality.
You feel so wonderful and free when being yourself in public, and it feels as though the hormones (if they've been started yet) are doing amazing things to one's appearance. Although they are, you probably have a ways to go before passing as your true gender in public, no matter how girly- or manly-looking you may feel.
On the other hand, if you feel like you're being "read"-- in that you're getting funny looks, uncomfortable stares and second glances-- one commonly begins to feel far less confident. As confidence is a huge factor in passing, this can tend to put you in a negative feedback loop. Especially under the scrutiny of the checkout counter.
dear,
Really your expereience is good and inspiring.I also had the similar though not same experiences in my life.mail tome further informantion about your life style, your boy friends and your sexual life with them and whether they treat as natural women.
Yours,
ragini
Your New Gender and You (Pt. 2) - 04/11/06 04:38 PM
Once again, we return to Augtember Umpteenth, 2005...
5:00 PM. After coming home and eating my cheap frozen pizza, I call the temp agency I applied at a week ago. I won't name names. One of the owners had given me a weird, nervous interview. They didn't contact me for a week afterward.
"Oh, hi, Milla! Sorry, right after you applied, several of us in the office went on vacation!"
Ahh, I see. Um, you know, evidently they never did come back from vacation.
I'm glad, too.
Other than job discrimination, perhaps the biggest issue the transgendered person faces, especially early on in his/her/hir transition, is confidence. It's a bit of a duality.
You feel so wonderful and free when being yourself in public, and it feels as though the hormones (if they've been started yet) are doing amazing things to one's appearance. Although they are, you probably have a ways to go before passing as your true gender in public, no matter how girly- or manly-looking you may feel.
On the other hand, if you feel like you're being "read"-- in that you're getting funny looks, uncomfortable stares and second glances-- one commonly begins to feel far less confident. As confidence is a huge factor in passing, this can tend to put you in a negative feedback loop. Especially under the scrutiny of the checkout counter.
Posted in hindsight, transition by Milla | Comments (1)
dear,
Really your expereience is good and inspiring.I also had the similar though not same experiences in my life.mail tome further informantion about your life style, your boy friends and your sexual life with them and whether they treat as natural women.
Yours,
ragini
Posted by ragini at September 15, 2006 12:37 PM